I’ve always believed I could be anything in the world. I would be the first 100% stuttering president if I wanted and I really believe that. Where I find my struggle comes in at is my daily schedule. If you knew my successes, you’d know my daily schedule means the most to me. It’s my deciding factor. With the belief of being anything in the world, I have to know what to say “no” to as well. It’s not that I can’t do it because I certainly believe I can, it’s just trying to balance everything. That’s the struggle. Even with my 2 choices of running a business and bodybuilding, I still find it challenging to put my all into one or the other. I’m not talking 100% tho. I’m talking 110!!!! The extra shit.
Listen, I know I’m doing good in both, I know this. Sometimes I feel my mind plays tricks on me. For example…lately, my business has been going REALLY GOOD. Like super good. It’s where I’m putting my energy at the moment because I have to but when I go to the gym for my sessions in the morning or look in the mirror, although I find I’ve made tremendous improvements, it’s still not as much as I’d like and I feel I can do more in that area. Maybe eat an extra meal a day….or two…stretch more, do my yoga more. Ice and therapy more. I just feel like when one thing is going good in my life, something else lacks. Not purposely…it’s just how it goes. I’m starting not to believe the “don’t put your eggs in one basket” because to be super great at anything, there will come a time when you feel you have to.
Not saying you can’t do 2 things you love at once because I’m doing it! When you get ahead in business you can delegate and that’ll make more time for the real stuff. Sometimes my mind just plays tricks on me like WHY CANT EVERYTHING BE CLICKING 100%!!
Maybe everything is clicking 100% and that’s the point I don’t see because I’m so hungry for more ya know. So much of a perfectionist. Why can’t my business be at 110, relationship at 110, friendships at 110, bodybuilding at 110….I guess that’s what the journey is..trying to reach perfection. I know shit won’t always be perfect but I guess I can enjoy the times when I do feel like everything is at 100. 🤷🏾♂️