A Race To Perfection…
Being perfect. It was always something I wanted to be but never gotten there yet. It’s a curse but it’s also a blessing. More so the latter.
I’ve never settled for mediocre. Anything I’ve done in life, I’ve wanted to be the damn greatest at it. Whether it’s being the greatest husband, building the greatest body, or the greatest human. I’ve always wanted to stretch boundaries. I was never satisfied with the norm. I mentioned it’s a curse and here’s why:
I’m a great husband but why can’t I be an even greater husband? The thing is, I’m never happy for myself no matter the milestones I’ve accomplished. I feel I could’ve always done more. This leads to happiness being cut short and me not living in the current moment. Sometimes am I proud of myself? Yes, but it’s short lived. Then it’s back to work to accomplish a greater goal.
Why is it a blessing you may ask?
It’s a blessing because it keeps me on my toes. I’m a good bodybuilder but I’m not the greatest so let’s work until I become the greatest!!! I’m not the best husband but I’m going to give my all every damn day until I’m who she sees in her dreams. Telling myself it’s not enough just makes me work harder at whatever it is that I want. I guess I have a competitor mindset. I just want to be greater than my current work. That’s really all. Then when I become greater at my current work, it’s time to step it up and become even greater. I’m just never satisfied and it gives me the ability to work harder. Probably why I have such an insane work ethic. I just want to win. At everything in my life.
I want to be a great human. I want to love. I want to be nice. I want to give lots of hugs and have cool ass conversations with people. I want to touch a life and inspire a generation. I don’t have an ounce of hate in my bones and if you’ve ever crossed me, it’s okay to talk to me again. I probably don’t even remember what you did. But the reality is, sometimes I fall short on being a great human. I cross people as well but don’t mean to do it. I hurt people with my words. Sometimes I roll the windows up when a homeless man is asking for change because I’m having a bad day. Sometimes I may do something that offend the next. If so, I’m sorry.
Sometimes I wonder, why chase perfection as a human when I’ll never reach it. Well here’s why….because it’s makes me a better person. And anything that makes me a better human is a good thing.
So to all my competitive mindset people…maybe you’ll never reach a level of satisfaction but that don’t mean never be proud of yourself. Look at us!! We’ve come such a long way. Maybe we should take a minute to pat ourselves on the back. Maybe we do actually deserve it sometimes.
All in all, keep fucking going and never settle! Be proud of yourself but never stay in that arena. Get back in the mud and get back to work because there’s always more out there. There’s always bigger goals and bigger dreams. Go get that shit. ❤️